a stupid little poem..

..just for you


i will hide all my true feelings, i will fake happiness,
fake optimism, hide my sorrow, contain my emotions,
i will harbor all the pain i feel..just to keep you, i can't lose you.
i need to keep you, forever. for as long as i can, as long as life wills me.
even if that means becoming a whole different person in the process,
i will sacrifice my true self, as long as you stay mine.
please say you'll stay mine, i need you to be mine.

i will forfeit my soul, for us to be whole.
it will always be up to you, i will be anything you want.
i can't make it any simpler. i must be with you.
i need to be with you, forever. for as long as i can,
as long as life wills me. i may become a different person in the process;
but i'm hoping, a better person for you. because i can't lose you.
i need to keep you, i need you to be mine.

i never feel i'm good enough for you,
i praise you, is that wrong? i think that's wrong.
but i can't help it, it's what i am, do i change that too?
should i change that too? it's a miracle you still love me.
but do you really? it's not a hypothetical question.
i can't help but wonder, in the back of my mind.
it's a lingering question in the back of my mind.
it won't leave, does it keep me sain? i hope not.
you drive me insane.

i would do anything for you, i will do anything for you.
it's not a secret, its not a statment, it's a promise.
a pinky promise, the only kind of promise worth keeping.
i will change my being, just for you. just for you.