Charles Christopher Litteral:
i love you so much chris! haha i got bored so i decided to make this for you. i hope you like it..you better like it!! i miss you so much, and i care about you more than anything and anyone else in this whole entire world. if we were to ever end, i would never forget you, my first true love. i would never change what we have for anything in this whole entire UNIVERSE! but it's a good thing that will never happen, because we both pinky promised forever and always and after and i do not intend on breaking that promise, ever! and i hope you don't either . im going to miss you even more when you go to Florida, even though i dont see you now anyways ha. i wont get to talk to you as much because you'll be busy with school, and i understand. i just miss you so much! i miss your touch, your hugs, our tippy toe kisses, haha or how i'd get on the step above yours, i miss holding your hands, riding in the car with you, and getting on your nerves because i'd be staring at you but i can't help it; i would stare because i could never believe the moment, i was with you, and you're so amazing, i couldnt believe how lucky i am. i miss laying in your bed "watching movies" ha and even actually watching a movie or just laying there..and when you'd fall asleep and you'd twitch, even though you say you dont, but YOU DO haha i miss falling asleep with you and waking up to you right next to me, and i can't wait to do that everyday, for the rest of our lives. i could write a book just listing the things i miss about you and the things i love about you, maybe one day i will haha but for now, ill just leave you with this...: i am completely, head over-heels, over the moon in love you boy and that will never ever change, no matter what happens! NO MATTER WHAT! forever, always, after, and for eternity.
i'll remind you::
"Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy. You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies. You expect her to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect her to calm you down when you're yelling or to chase you when you run away. You expect so much that you feel entirely, and utterly defeated when something doesn't exactly match up with all your plans. But that's the thing. Love isn't a plan. It doesn't have a certain beginning and it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it. Love happens; it is so incredibly messy. People around you can't comprehend why you do the things you do, or why you fight so hard for something that seems to cause you so much pain, because simply, they can't see. They can't see the invisible ring of insanity that surrounds you when you're in love. It's inconvenient and painful and devastating at times, but we can't live without it. What you don't learn is how hard love is. How much work it takes. How much of ourselves we have to put into it. How it isn't worth it until we are complete and utter idiots about it. Love isn't her calming you down when you yell. It's her yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you, right in your face to wake you up and to keep you grounded. It isn't her/him bringing you roses everyday or cute things that make your relationship appear more presentable. It's after a long fight, that drains the life and bones right out of you both, and yet her showing up at your door the next morning anyway. It's not her saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you. So no, it's not her caressing your hair and telling you everything is going to be alright. It's her standing there, admitting she's just as scared as you are. You have to remember that with love, you're not the only one involved. You've unknowingly put your life, your heart into the palms of another persons hands and said, here. Do what you will. Mash it into a million pieces. Or forget I ever handed it to you. As long as you have it. It makes us crazy. It makes reality invisible and it erases all the lines that we shouldn't cross. Because love isn't about fencing ourselves in; feeling safe, feeling sure about the future. It's about scaring the shit out of every nerve in our body, but pushing forward anyway. Because all the fighting and all the tears and all the uncertainty is worth it. And it's a hell of a lot better, than being 100% happy without someone to show us that there is a world of a difference between feeling 'happy' and feeling whole. " - Andrew Landon
" Seems somebody put out the moon
Now the road is a minefield
can't follow the way she moves
can't see past the shadows
You make the darkness disappear
feel found when you stay near
know where I am when you are here
My way becomes so clear
When you are gone
Will I lose control?
You are the only road I know
You show me where to go
Who will drive my soul?
Seems somebody burned out the signs
can't expect the hard curves
There is no borders
There are no lines
How can I know where to turn?
You make the street lights reappear
feel bright when you stand near
know what I am when you are here
My place becomes so clear
When you are gone
Will I lose control?
You're the only road I know
You show me where to go
Who will drive me soul?
Will I lose control?
You're the only road that I know
You show me where to go
Who will drive my soul?
Drive my soul
When you're gone
Will I lose control?
You're the only road I know
You show me where to go
When you're gone
Will I lose control?
You're the only road I know
You show me where to go
Who will drive my soul? "
- LIGHTS
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